august - before dawn.
listen.
chemistry.
today in maths my teacher asked me a question and i didn't know how to answer it, this was like so cut, why did she pick me. </3 cos she reckons i aint focused in class. this is true, but i don't get how she explains it. i just don't. this actually hit me even deeper, if i don't start asking questions im gonna fail maths b. this is bad and maths use to be a strong subject. and jap. im gonna cry hard to the core )))))))))))))))))): why is this happening to me. then i get better marks in philosophy than any other subjects. how do i improve ???????????????????????????????????????????
not in the mood and chem teacher said i can't hand in a discussion&conclusion because she has to read so many other drafts. i guess tough luck. what's done is done.
im freaking out for maths and japanese. ): stuff them who said asians are good at maths im a great example. im fcking avero, maybe even unsatisfactory. how can i improve ? i really don't know. gonna go weep away my fears.
i just hate people in general, they make you fall a little harder then crush you like glass. im shattered. oh look what i did there.
crying weeping - my life is so cut. i think state high is getting the better of me. i need to get use to this level of competition and deadlines.
chemistry eei - Friday 25 May
japanese reading - 29 May
godwin beach - 30 May
blocks start week 8 till 9
semi - 22 June
and 1 whole week to do no shiit. stupid. i can get through this.
