falling again?

today was like sort of the *first time you made the effort to talk to me first rather than me always start to you. but it wasn't really, it was only coincident that we came out of class at the same time and like i only got talk to you for a bit crossing the road. then somebody had to interrrupt tsssh soo pissed -.- thens they made it look as though we had something going. i didn't want him to get the wrong idea. i know he didnt but seriously i wish he knew. i wish we could talk forever, just walking and talking. i want to know more about him, why he's so shy. in the morning i wanted to see if he'd say hi to me, but he didn't so i cbf to put the effort. i didnt see him anymore until end of day :(

• do you realise how fast this term is going, do you realise how much i miss being with you, us alone. but you don't realise anything, you're just in your own universe, im just a partial part of it as your friend. when will you understand that what we built up was more than just that? maybe this is why im so unfocused. when i missa chance to see you im unhappy. this hasn't really happened on anyone but you. cos you showed me that i was important and worth it. or do you just treat ever girl like that? its painful. idk if i want you go to the outing. part of me wants to invite you, but im scared you're too shy. can we meet up on the holidays often? just to talk to you would make my day everyday. im scared to know that i don't have a chance. i mean i don't stand a chance against the person you have *feelings for

i gotta do my english, or else im going to fail. im really stress out nows: im feeling the pressure.
tmr is bio exam and jap maybe
friday is english and chemistry
monday is jap aggain

i dont know how im going to go through, i hope you realise what you meant to me sooner or later :(
write about today later.

do i believe in fate? 11/11/11 please let me have one last wish before i leave.