would've been more appropriate to have done this post at the end of the year hey but i guess a day before halloween???
well let's say i can't say im the same this year has been a rollercoaster aye and i should be studying for the 6 upcoming exams about to annihilate me but oh wells. I am current at the therapies hub waiting to go eat some sushi or mos burgers by myself cos i need this therapy ahhh.
where do i even start what has this year even become?
a lot of heart breaks
partying
changes in friend groups
making a ton load of friends
different perspectives
quarrels
bad temperament
getting fatter
and eating shit load of food
and experiencing a lot of things for the first time (safe to say its nothing bad)
definitely have loosened my fews on a number of things
but yeah let's start with how many bday's ive been to
not boasting im just counting so don't hate (not including the ones invited to but didn't attend)
- jess ly
- amihan
- milton
- elizabeth
- lynda
- annie
- vi
- tien
- duy
- nancy
- mechelle
- hueman
- richard
- sarah
- anthony
- lijin
- jessica
- mine & ling's
- vicky
- mai
- marie
- tammy
- hannah
- aiden
- laura
invited to lan's this 11th nov but can't go because its a day before my exam HA fuck me and its not a party thank god just a beach bday yee
also forget that i went out EVERY SINGLE FUCKING weekend this month of october
yes most memorable experience before meeting the corinda people and partying with them was probably mt tamborine where i met all the guys and i guess that ignited something oh wells its nothing just like everything, it means nothing in the end
then yeah i started partying a lot after being invited to tien's 18th then continually being invited again to their parties.
and then i think to myself if i didnt meet them hat would this year have been like? dunno really maybe i would've done better in uni or maybe not even uni but just been a totally different person
after aiden's though i realised how done i was with these parties so tiring trying to keep up. like i love dressing up and looking good in photos but it's just not worth it anymore. just not anymore.
another note, might i add my makeup skills have improved tremendously, going from no make up skills to an adequate level is actually an achievement.
Wot is else can i say too much has happened this year too much yoloness
oh yes turned 18! clubbing wooo
more like BOOO
good first experience! but after that just been shit hey and costly so fk it im too poor for this life
but the most recent for hannahs bday it was good! but creepy and i lost a lot of shit. basically if you look at my uq id card it basically sum up how that night at the clubs was. ANYWAYZ
on a bad note i completely bombed out on anat1019 midsem failed and i completely hold myself responsible for being a dickhead of a person and am on the verge of breakout because this final will make our brake my grade and if i can continue and advance to 2nd year so get your shit together linh you gotta fucken pass. i said i wouldn't become that person i said id never be
LOOK AT ME NOW
and im sorry that my blog posts are so sporadic and have no sense of direction its because if something comes to mind i will type it i am not an orderly person or well i have become less orderly and pathetic. now i forgot what i was gonna say
well not that anyone reads my blog but yeah my love life is miserable and i've noticed that ive become more emotionally unstable and kinda ugh
i wish my life was normal and i could have my life together and not worry or think too much about anything
a lot of people probably judge me from what they see but not what they know and idc and there's just some people who i have in two completely different worlds and i dont know what they want but i have officially detached from it i can no longer do this to myself, i am not myself when im around them and i feel like i have to conform.
i also found out how scary someone can be just to get what they want or just to keep someone always from their token.
and that is why i volunteer to withdraw from this competition in which no one will win but the token.
i love subliminal messages but yeah its time to go grab some mos burger
and sushi? omg idek just eat everything and i have no money i have currently like -1.1k in debt wtf. so like yeah
3weeks of hell will come when mum leaves to vn
but for now i will just feed off the sorrow and work hard and smashed those exams
go hard or go home
you don't understand,
