FK ITS SOOO HARD TO DO WELL, I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS OF 'FK IT, IDGAF' but i can't bring myself to doing that. why is that even when i try, im never getting what i want. its always for english and maths, then jap i always screw up. i dont know what to dooo, can someone please tell mee. i am truly out of strategies, im slowly giving up on everything. I try to motivate myself but nothing seems so work. everyone around says that 'ill be fine' or 'you can do it'. but im so tired. i really dont think i can. i really want the holidays. im feeling sick of everything, i think there is no reason to go to school anymore. friends yes, but i just want to be hidden away, im soo tired to talk, argue or do any work. i need a break already. everyone's got there problems and i just have more than the average human. i cant handle this, can someone just take me away from this, just for a little while.
im starting to forget my goals and aspirations at state high, why did i come here. im not the same as everyone here. maybe i dont fit in. im differentttttttt, not their kind, their standards. i didn't get bio award. i am extremely <////////////////////3 i really wanted it. i wanted to be proud of myself for once. i wanted to be proven better than the rest. i wanted to show all the people that doubted me that i am better than they think and that they were wrong, but no i couldnt achieve it. but i have to remind me that its state high, SOMEONE is always better than you. acceptance.
okay today's stories:
morning: i missed that bus at uni and anyu was at school sooo early. well at least a helped this chick that was bleeding on her foot. i gave her a tissue and band-aid. soon came and anyu read my jap hwk yadiyadiyaayaya.
philo: watched this weird as decision making documentary so i fell asleep, contemplated on submitting my jap
eng: teacher decided to do our english outside in the environment. i tried to fix up my draft. i have to accept that the teacher will never like me no matter what. raga drank all my water
maths: not listening again, took half an hour with sunny to just draw a sin function
jap: didn't have an activity book so i moved to hannah, omfg embarassing photo of amihans edit of karaoke photo. must kill, liz, ivan and sarah. writing shiet about anyu and me. farkkrk
laura's and hannah's birthday on monday. what to wear? most importantly am i even attending.
