im sho fat.
um i havent done like one of those meaningful posts on this blog since never. i think there was a turning point in my life LOOOL. i gave up on feelings yerp.
anyways everything is going better now idk. i helped mum at work today. im soo like lazy i dont want to but i should. when i think of the holidays its like stress stress, assignments, exam prep annnnnnd esp work. then i want to go out with friends as well, but my parents are like narp going to the library, its counted as an outing, even though these holidays are crucial to do maths eng and idk whatever subject that's distressing fuark, then i will get raged at for going to a library for so long and being accused of going to city and not really studying blahblah this always happens--' like dude, give meh a break AKSLJKASFJKASLFJ. idk how i return to my normal state, my normal self. but i get over it. kims bday and vicky, joona. i wont even go like i doubt ill be allowed.
cant wait for my brithday party, but things like these always happen on my birthday, im unprepared and leave home late and turn out ugray and ewwwies.
idk im scared of things that are gonna happen soon. idk where im heading. i actual do not know ):
need my learners as well
