maybe when someone sees you at first they think youre pretty cool, maybe like youre like so chilled and yeah, but yeah when you realise who they really are and realise their insecurities im afraid but youll look at them differently.
i mean from far i may look like HAHAHA she's always fucking laughing does she ever get sad ? does she ever have trouble? like wth? i mean even if i have feelings for you doesnt mean it won't change like i said, nothing is forever. when you realise the true me, youll find me ugly. only my friends know me, like well theyve learnt to accept me. yeah maybe you've ran into to me a few times, maybe you looked at me a few times but yeah if we're close things might change. i guess its all within your character and how your friendship starts off i mean nothings easy. im different to the other, they can just be easy going and stuff, im not like that cos im scared when people see me clearly theyll know and judge me. i mean i didnt chose to be like this, i was born like this. you still don't know me well enough to try.....
i've learnt one thing about starting a new school is that some people you can just instantly click with and some well they just don't want you there though most are kind. if someone new ever comes comes, i believe you should make them welcome, just a simple hello or maybe starting the conversation for once. starting a new school isn't easy, you have to accept the environment you are in and how sometimes your circumstances stand against you.
i guess its best to smile, i mean think positive right, things will get better. but really are we all lying to ourselves just to get over another reckless day of hard work, fake laughter and unexplainable tiredness ?
i guess the mind is like that.
just treat people the way you want to be treated, love more than hate.
