i need you, but ......
anyways i realoy hate work, i hate going out there everyday working my arse off and getting nothing back in return. childhood abused. wells day oofff. should i go southbank and watch puss in booots. but my dads sorta sick and so i should stay home and take care of him : / idk what to do.
this year christmas came to early for me to prepare anythin, i think im putting up the christmas tree today D: mainly because ive been working so hard out i never got a chance to like shop? or anything, i just hope this xmas 2011 will be something to remember, tbh i rather be stuck with you such a wonderful occasion but oh wells nothing goes my way anyways T_T last year xmas was horrible i don't want to look back at that omg.
when some says that you have a good friend, what are they trying to imply? is it that you should treasure or are they saying im not treasuring them? i don't knowreally .__.
i plan to blog a lot today but i just dont have the time. i need to clean the house , chores, xmas tree, etc, cook, just not enought time for me to evoke what my mind has been bottling up just not enough :'(
one day i'll grab you hand and say you're mine, dont ever leave pleaaase :L doubt that willl happen but, when i have guts to man up . ill go play legos with my little brother, pretend im a bubble, be a retard, jump over the fence, born a forever alone, bitches please form a fricken line. im going to read the crucible O: sounds so epic, its for english next year at bshs, i have to be well prepared, at tutor he said i should read thee book over like more than 5 times, i was like O______________O ohmygawst, you joking brah? wells D': T____________________T
talkshiet, get hiet.you got that bruh.
and i still come to the same words.
i love you
