we haven't talked for more than a week. does he realise im leaving ? it shows how unimportant i am towards him. i dont wanna hear any excuses. i cant believe i put so much into this and get nothing. one day he'll realise that i made him feel special. but that will be too late.
i don't think i have any hopes for it anymore :(
for the first time today, i felt happy without seeing him a lot O: ill have to get use to it i guess, but in my mind i still have this thing bugging me. im slowly letting go ?
i wish i knew the answer to all my worries. let the memories fade just like everyone else around me. i cant do much. i cbf going to my farewell party as well. i dont see much fun. when you see those tears roll down my eyes you will realise how important you were to me, and to let you go was the hardest thing i could've possibly done. i need you, but you dont need me. that doubt in me every single time i see you, but you always make me feel clueless and unwanted....disappointed all the time. nothing will change. and you certainly won't either, sometime i think of the reason why i fell for you, then again it just comes you can't really explain.
last thing to do, is the gift from me to you
ignored today as well.
