weells im starting to realise everything will end soon, pretty soon. sometimes i just wanna sit down, like let the world pause for a moment and let me retrace or recall all the memories and what's actually happening in my life, but time is my issue. i can't pause or rewind or forward time. i wish, but no. i wanna be able to just have a night where i can just go sleep knowing the the days to come, i have nothing to worry about, but life sucks oh wells.
a lot of things bother me, just there's no point in pointing it out, i see none. i just wanna be able to be with you all the time, tell you that i care and tthat i'll never let you go. all i want is to be with you, is that too much? really.
i know i over-think but it's hard not to, because i know at some point, well lets say in less than two weeks time, ill have to let you go. i have to go my on way. even if i see you once in a while, it'll never be the same, not like how everything is now, not like how everything use to be. at least by seeing you nearly everyday i can check up on you, but next year, seeing you is just a matter of luck. i wonder if my absence will impact a lot. i don't think so. really, i don't want to put on that fake smile everyday, then come home and turn it upside down. i wish everything in my like was in place the way i planned it in my mind every night before i go to sleep.
every wish made isn't guaranteed to come true, but at least one, just one. that's all i ask for.
i just need someone to tell me that im important to then and that they'll never let me go. even if anything happens. please.
